My earthly self has taken a beating, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have been shaken to the core of who I am (or even who I think I am). Pain flooded my veins in ways that I have never felt it before.
My struggles had become so overwhelming that I took everything upon myself to try and fix it. Countlessly, I failed and took the blame for it. Situations kept on happening, and even with the knowledge in hindsight, I was still choosing to be blind. I was, and still am, petrified.
Yet, today, I realized that it didn't have to be that way. I had given up on giving my worries up to God because of my earthly desire to immediately fix the situations.
I failed to notice that He was using the worst of outcomes and given me multiple opportunities to bring Him glory through this, which in turn would heal my aching heart.
All I had to do is give it all, and I mean all, of my worries, my struggles, my sins up to God.
It's going to be hard to fully let go of this, but He has placed the pieces in the right places and I just need to trust Him from the bottom of my heart. As long as I know that Christ is in me, I have the hope of this merciful glory. All I have to do is let go and let God...
be my everything...
be my everything...
be my everything.
